I promise i'll love you .

Why does it ache so bad . Why must i ruin what i have , my everything just disappeared in a flash . I know what was wrong , i know how i am . I know it because you left but i'm not ready to let you go , never will i be ready .

I'm sorry for what i was in the past , but i know i cant change the past , i know it's impossible but there's something possible , i'll be better , a million times better . I wont be perfect , never will i but i'll be awesome . I'm sorry for the way i handled things before , i'm good now .

I made myself a promise to love you still . Though it's tough but i'll do my best to write out everything i feel everyday . Even if times keep going on , this love i have for you will never stop . Be it , one day , one month , one year , nothing changes . You shown me what love is . You are the only man in my life to be able to give me that much .

I dont believe anyone can change that . I'll only understand what love is when you're around .

When will this fake smile slowly fade away ? I'm so tired , trying my best to divert my focus somewhere else , nothing helps nothing .. Sometimes i pray hard life would end faster so i wouldn't know anything and just sleep forever . But i'm really selfish for doing so .

Loving you may be hard , but i'm willing to . Loving you without you loving me back is painful but i'll wait till the day you realise . It's going to be hard cheryl , with everything on your back . You'll going to have a tough time from this coming year on , your love , your life , your all was just being ripe out of you . You'll need to slowly find that missing and sew it back . & that's you ..