Why does this always happen ?

Yesterday night was horrible , to add on to it , i had a dream about it . Shan't elaborate it here .

I tried to change for you , & told you that im ready to be better .
You never gave me the chance .

This time , i'll do it better for my boy ,
im going to make things rights for us .
Baby you're all i need .

You're the one who willingly picked me up
& slowly walk me out of this darkness .
You are going to be the one that love , care & worry for me now dearest !
TEEHEE , i love you la ! so random :x