Im suffering a very bad mental meltdown . so i decided to leave this blog . erms , whatever about yl & yy , whatever sabo-ing was a year back . now no more ._. & i wanted yy number is because of the passerby issue and i wanted to explain to clear up misunderstanding . that's all .

I'm bored !

This is how bored i am , im already posting for the second time !

Baby is just being a super pig ._. He went out till very late & i forget to off my stupid alarm so i got woken up at 6 , just now saw baby's message :x baby was worry sick for me about yesterday thing so he didn't sleep till i reply . silly baby only had 5 hours of sleep yet still wait for me . so i pei-ed him message till 7 plus then i asked him to sleep . so nice of me right :x wei le ta hao ~

Currently playing cafe world & restaurant city ._. im so good at organising restaurant seys ! mai siao siao ! :x talking to serene and perry too ! {: waiting for my dearest to wake up . Gosh i bet he'll wake up like 6 or 7 like that nor :/ lalalas :x zai na li uh baby !!

yawns , i'm bored to my grave . which kind soul wanna entertain me , cause serene msn me we both equally sians . jane sms me also equally sians ! so we just boring till i kind feel my ass rotting off D:

Why does this always happen ?

Yesterday night was horrible , to add on to it , i had a dream about it . Shan't elaborate it here .

I tried to change for you , & told you that im ready to be better .
You never gave me the chance .

This time , i'll do it better for my boy ,
im going to make things rights for us .
Baby you're all i need .

You're the one who willingly picked me up
& slowly walk me out of this darkness .
You are going to be the one that love , care & worry for me now dearest !
TEEHEE , i love you la ! so random :x

Day out !

had my day out with baby & friends {: went over to blk 8 to meet wipawan first & OH ! i just remember , i haven't give baby back the money i ask him lend wipawan :x MEMO TO SELF ! remember return baby money !

so we went over far east but things wont pretty cause wipawan seems to be rather upset :/ but i had baby's companion ! so i wasnt that badly affected {: walked around , nothing caught my eye though maybe when got time bring von dear & rene baby down go shop maybe will find something i want ba :/ i need heels , need skinny , need glossy leggings and of course pretty dresses ! then can wear mei mei li li go out {:

teehee , so we went over cine cause baby wanted to get soundproof headset and wipawan wanted food ! i was crapping the whole trip there ! was lalas-ing all the way there , complaining to him my legs were AWFULLY SUAN ! then he knock my head D: baby bully me ~

went over ljs to SEE them have lunch cause i was not hungry at all , but dumb baby bought food & made me eat . gu yi guai lan me de baby was just being plain evil , tell him not hungry le still buy BIG BIG portion for me , say want share share , MAKE ME EAT ALL THE MEAT ! luckily taolong saved me ! Praise the Lord ! :x

after that , dunno what happen la , the rest went off i went over to plaza sing with baby , taolong & ahley cause laoniang want play DDR ! so stress , i play then all behind keep STARE STARE , evil dickheads :x so taolong jio-ed me play PIU , i tell you is funny like one fcuk , noob like fcuk lo :x keep miss all the way ~ then i down there zhuan quan quan ~ KEKE !

play awhile le we jiu went off , baby say i jialat ! play till look like just bathe :x so guyi hug baby , then all my smelly sweat end up on him ! WAHAHAHA !

went back blk 8 after that , baby going to ton :/ haha , TON SI TA UH ! but he sent my off to bus stop first ~ after that jiu come home , bathe le now sit here and stare stare into thin air . i went out & came home happily but somehow i got my mood ruined D:

do you still love me ? idk .
but i do , unseemingly waiting for you .
i wonder how hard it's going to be letting you go .
will baby be the one to walk me through ? idk .
suddenly my world seems to be so confused .

okays , whatever typed must be fucking misunderstood .

My post no longer talks about yl , all done and over with . It was all about wk , all the missing and everything is on him . I don't know how the fuck that passerby link it to yl .

Secondly , passerby , you have no rights to say me because no one knows you . So please please please get lost and don't make trouble for me .

Yueyin , nothing has to do with yl anymore . It's all wk , my ex . I don't know how the passerby made it seem like yl prob . I don't fucking wanna have any quarrels with you either . So ya , if you misunderstand then i'm sorry . Those things said about my ex was when we were apart and i was single , not about yl .

So ya that's about it . Back to normal posting . Seriously , if you're not involve in my relationship with wk before please get your butt off my trouble passerby . I don't want to wei le your few words and offend so many ppl . Even wk don't know who you are . He's your friend your prob don't come disturb me .

So everything settled and done . Let everything back to normal .

BRAINWAVE !

i have plans on getting a private blog again {:

yawns it's 11.30 , and piggy haven't wake up D: still say he very zai confirm will wake up de :x lets see what time he wakes up , i bet he'll wake up late down there , SORRY SORRY ~ nvm nahs , later going gai gai with baby {: so lazy get ready . i shall go laze around first :x since so early , wait for that pig to sms me -.- sniff sniff , i got flu ! D: random ~ hahs !

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i'm so loving my audi fam fam :x so i have the sudden urge to do advertising for them :x make them KNOWN ! i'm planning to add nuffnang to it for the sake of fun :x but hahas ! i love my -L-Cupiids~ so here it is !

ARE YOU READY FOR THE ONCE IN A LIFETIME EXPERIENCE !

TO SEE WHAT YOU HAVE NEVER SEEN BEFORE !

IT'LL MAKE YOU SCREAM SHOUT AND GO INSANE !

& THAT IS ..

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terms & conditions apply .

OHKAY :x the terms & condition is just crapping la ! :x

Happy Birthday to BABY !

BABY ! Happy Birthday to CHUUUUU ~ teehee , old le wor ! seventeen ! OHMY , OLD MAN :x haos la , dont say i bad , i sing you birthday song !

Happy Birthday to CHUUU ~
Happy Birthday to CHUUU ~
Happy Birthday to MILK MILK BABY ~
Happy Birthday to CHUUU ~

very nice rights ? hehes , tomorrow go find you SING LOUD LOUD for you haos bu haos :x then hor , i want BIRTHDAY BASH ~ *BISH BISH* make baby whole body BLUE BLACK ~ then like that baby will remember ME ! {: so sweet of me right :x i know la , thank you thank you ~

haos la , crap finish means time for me to go AUDI , MAPLE & DOTA ! hahas , hardcore player ~ muahahahahs :x wait for baby online for audi then go thrash him , shall go train my MAPU MAPU :x next time become ai zai kia :x AISEHS ~

OH YA ! congrats to HUIYAO & SERENE BABY too ! all same day uhs , swee swee ~ WEEWUUWEE ! ohmy , cheryl so hyper ! unbelievable :x

let wk stuff rest for today , let this day be peaceful for awhile {: happy or sad , i'll leave a smile on my face today .

Baby i love you la :x

Hehes , i'm happy today ! I'm very very happy :x tomorrow is baby's birthday and i haven't got him anything :x but baby wants it to be cheap , any idea what is cheap but nice . Give me idea people !

Yawns , text with baby for awhile then he went out and i'm off to work {: working with mama and papa for one day to get 150 dollar , but so tiring must run back and forth from airport , and i have to stand for like an hour everytime i'm there , i'm the mini tour guide there ! {:

now at terminal 3 and well , i'm having a very bad stomach pain , awww }: looking awfully pale now .. Wonder where baby went .

Haha , he'll be very happy since he made me call him baby so badly today :x bully me . Ahma also ! Both uh ~ evil dicks ~

i admit i still miss and love you , but i believe baby will make me realise that you're just another guy . Happy now passerby ? Baby needs the confidence to love , and i need the confidence to stay strong . We'll both play a part in each other lives and maybe we'll be perfect for each other {:

yawns , another long day today . shit , tomorrow school starts & we're getting our god damn result back tomorrow & i swear i am in no mood to get it back , somehow i think it suck so bad D: so im prepared to get screwed D:

met with serene at teckwhye mac & went to get my concession at lot one . after that went up to lot , teehee actually suppose to go blk 8 de , so .. went to arcade , didnt see anyone there D: played ddr with someone i have no idea what is his name :x wahlao ! laoniang fat fat le D: play ddr will very tired nor ~ then stupid barry even more JIALAT ! come disiao me make me miss D: my pretty combo GONE D:

then louis & akif came to find us cause no one was at blk 8 ~ the played initial d while i continue hogging my ddr , then zen & barry disiao kia siahs -.- i down there watch weikiong play barry down there "meinu , ke yi gen ni na hao ma mahs ?" then i thought he want take so next time come lot can jio me along yuan lai shi bluff my feeling de -.- hahas , then i went back to see akif play initial d , cute bodoh :x then i hold hand with serene walk walk around mahs ~ SI BARRY ! come disturb again , say whys never hold hand with him also ~ AH SIAO ! today forget eat medicine te bie want to disturb me .

played till 4 plus jiu bus-ed down to blk 8 . NOBODY D: then teckwee came {: he slacked awhile jiu say goodbye to us , left serene , louis , akif and i there . then the co. came le , talked with serene about STUFF :x until we both cried so badly :\ then i send her to the stairs there went to emo alone for awhile wait till i more calm then go find them ..

around 8 plus , hong lee pei-ed me go wait for bus . hehes , so nice to disturb him :x he looking at the bus the board then wet wet mahs , i go hit it the water splash on him :x then he give me the DIAO face :x hee ~ silly hl milk :x

baby , i do miss you so much ? do you feel the same too ? i really hope you do . i hope everything you said to me that hurt me were just lies that you had a reason for . but baby , i wanna say this & i hope you're looking . you're wk , not anyone of my ex . those i claimed to love aint true love at all . you , you are different . though we are different in many ways i do love you a lot . whatever we had wont fade away like that .. you know it wont . baby this love is so true & you know that . i love you , awaiting for you to come back . but i want you to be happy but am i your happiness ? am i ? i dont know . someone told me that if you love someone , you want him to be happy even if it hurts you . look baby , i'm willing to give up this life for you , anything . so long you're happy . this time im sure . i love you . i cant type anymore . i saw your new blog & i feel i cant do this anymore .. sorry ..

im craving for this dress like crazy , but it's not in stores since forever 21 took it out from it's website , so if anyone is selling anything similar , leave me a tag . thanks {:

Another day .

Exams ends tomorrow but i dont feel that happy after all . Why must all this pain happen at the wrong time . I'll do a proper blog post from tomorrow onwards . Let put on a smile , ignoring if it is real or fake . Just wanna end the day .

Who am i now ?

I thought that i wasn't who i am anymore . I was usually the one who wouldn't have this stupid thought .

I feel pathetic , i feel like death . I really dont wish to live , for real this time . It's painful , excrutiating pain that conquer over me .

I'm hoping for a miracle now . Dear Lord , i pray for a miracle for him and i .

Off to study . Exam ends this tuesday , bye .

I promise i will .

i still love you no matter where i go ,
no matter how apart we are .
i need you boy ,
till the very last day .
never will i ,
never will i go away ..

I promise i'll love you .

Why does it ache so bad . Why must i ruin what i have , my everything just disappeared in a flash . I know what was wrong , i know how i am . I know it because you left but i'm not ready to let you go , never will i be ready .

I'm sorry for what i was in the past , but i know i cant change the past , i know it's impossible but there's something possible , i'll be better , a million times better . I wont be perfect , never will i but i'll be awesome . I'm sorry for the way i handled things before , i'm good now .

I made myself a promise to love you still . Though it's tough but i'll do my best to write out everything i feel everyday . Even if times keep going on , this love i have for you will never stop . Be it , one day , one month , one year , nothing changes . You shown me what love is . You are the only man in my life to be able to give me that much .

I dont believe anyone can change that . I'll only understand what love is when you're around .

When will this fake smile slowly fade away ? I'm so tired , trying my best to divert my focus somewhere else , nothing helps nothing .. Sometimes i pray hard life would end faster so i wouldn't know anything and just sleep forever . But i'm really selfish for doing so .

Loving you may be hard , but i'm willing to . Loving you without you loving me back is painful but i'll wait till the day you realise . It's going to be hard cheryl , with everything on your back . You'll going to have a tough time from this coming year on , your love , your life , your all was just being ripe out of you . You'll need to slowly find that missing and sew it back . & that's you ..

I stay in love .

haha , decided to let bygone be bygone . Well i do miss blogging a lot . Haven't got the time and the only reason why i blogging now is because i'm going to bathe and study soon . A few more paper and i'm done . I wanna study well and be a good girl .

Life hasn't been pretty lately , doing things i shouldn't do , i feel i'm not me anymore . Worst , i dont know who am i . With you around , i would be well organised , with you around thinks seem perfectly fine . I'll put my heart out to love you though i never really know how to show it . Love isn't hard at all , it isn't complicated . Why must we human make it seem like it's a never ending maze . It hurts , it's an endless pain a person has to suffer . Why must we be put in this kind of situation . It's despicable .

Being in love seems oh so awesome but falling out of love feels like fuck . I never really realized how much love could cause a person such a heartache till i feel it today . Simple message makes me feel like it's time for me to end my life here . It's not how i am , i'm not me anymore .

I wanna do well , i wanna study like hell even if it means to be a nerd . I wanna get into ngee ann . I wanna make miracles . I wanna prove to the world . Though i was a failure , i'll picked myself up . It wont be easy , never did never will . Will i regret in chasing you and loving you , only heaven knows and i'll wait for heaven to tell me that answer .

I'll my exams next week tuesday and i'll be free . Call me out on wednesday and thursday also can {: cause yours truly having marking day no need go school . I live a life that no one know . No one know what i'm really going through but only sherry and bonnie , for now . I know the one that are worth trusting are my best friend , my sister and brother . You're all loved . You know who you are {: if not sure can ask me :x

Alrights leave me a tag if you happen to drop by . I love happy comments {: i'll be back soon , improved and renewed . Take care !

With loads of love ,
Cheryl O.

im stress out & tired . i really lost my mood to do anything . my life feels wrecked & fcuked up . screw the world & screw the pathetic school . im sorry for being insulting , but do you know the amount of pressure imply on us ? i swear , i never felt like im on the verge to kill myself over studies . it's bad enough i have to study everything all over again , i still have to accept the fcuked up criticism you all give . im tired . seriously , accept me for who i am & how i am dealing with things instead of fucking screwing me for my negative stuff .

i follow my heart , my heart tells me you guys are just fcukers trying to pull me down , so ? i dont give a shit , try me la . i'll make it and show you that , you have taken me too easily , wanna call up my parents for not doing well ? COME ON , i fcuking cant be bothered by you childish ADULT . yes how unbelievable . i'll prove what im capable of . thanks to all your bloody comments , i feel screwed up . and stressing over everything . cant get a fcuked shit in my head & THANK YOU !

love , lust whatever . cant be bothered . all guys are the same , they hurt you & hurt you all over again . this is BOY'S BEST STUFF ! aww , how fcuked of them . whatever . tired & im going to sleep . i cant fcuking care you childish humans . im glad cause cheryl ong jia yi , dont fcuking believe in love {: